Okay, so I do not know why all of a sudden I don't have motivation to do ANYTHING but sit on my fat lazy butt and eat potato chips or whatever else loaded with carbs and sugar while I plant myself in front of the tv or computer. I seriously have GOT TO STOP!!
I have givin up all my goals and I feel like a big, fat, jello-like, LOSER. *sad face* I need to get back on track. I hate being bigger, and no I do not at all think I am Obese but I know this is the biggest I have ever been and I truly truly hate it and dislike myself a lot for letting myself get this way. My mom always tells me "You know what to do to change that." Well yes I do know what to do but really I need to figure out a way to remind myself of what I do not want to be. Starting with pictures of my nasty chub self in my car. That's sometimes where all my eating habits start is at the drive thru. If I see my nasty fatness in a picture on my dashboard maybe it'll stop me from eating the double cheeseburger with fries. I want to be motivated to go to the gym again. If anyone wants to join me, you are more than welcome but this needs to be for me and needs to be a change for the good. I am going to try and be strict with myself until I loose about 30 lbs, which if I am good should be before the end of the year. After that I will still eat what I enjoy but in MODERATION! Seriously folks I am going to come to terms with the fact that the food is NOT GOING TO DISAPPEAR if I dont EAT IT RIGHT AWAY! I get into this mode when food is placed in front of me and I scarf it down because it's like "Live for the moment right?" Eh I don't want to live for the moment because you don't know what could happen.
I know someone who was only 38 who died of a massive heart attack, I don't want that to be me and I want to prevent whatever I can.
So I am going to sit down now and decide when I am going to the gym and maybe having a structured day of when I am going to the gym will help. It's defiinitly a start. Oh and NO MORE SODA *sad* But seriously liquid sugar isn't something I need in my body or for my teeth. So there ya have it. Baby steps. I think I can I think I can I think I can I think I can...![]()
I have givin up all my goals and I feel like a big, fat, jello-like, LOSER. *sad face* I need to get back on track. I hate being bigger, and no I do not at all think I am Obese but I know this is the biggest I have ever been and I truly truly hate it and dislike myself a lot for letting myself get this way. My mom always tells me "You know what to do to change that." Well yes I do know what to do but really I need to figure out a way to remind myself of what I do not want to be. Starting with pictures of my nasty chub self in my car. That's sometimes where all my eating habits start is at the drive thru. If I see my nasty fatness in a picture on my dashboard maybe it'll stop me from eating the double cheeseburger with fries. I want to be motivated to go to the gym again. If anyone wants to join me, you are more than welcome but this needs to be for me and needs to be a change for the good. I am going to try and be strict with myself until I loose about 30 lbs, which if I am good should be before the end of the year. After that I will still eat what I enjoy but in MODERATION! Seriously folks I am going to come to terms with the fact that the food is NOT GOING TO DISAPPEAR if I dont EAT IT RIGHT AWAY! I get into this mode when food is placed in front of me and I scarf it down because it's like "Live for the moment right?" Eh I don't want to live for the moment because you don't know what could happen.
I know someone who was only 38 who died of a massive heart attack, I don't want that to be me and I want to prevent whatever I can.
So I am going to sit down now and decide when I am going to the gym and maybe having a structured day of when I am going to the gym will help. It's defiinitly a start. Oh and NO MORE SODA *sad* But seriously liquid sugar isn't something I need in my body or for my teeth. So there ya have it. Baby steps. I think I can I think I can I think I can I think I can...
